1/3/2013: Transitions    Saturday, January 26, 2013

Whenever I make a huge change in my life, I am always faced with 'buyer's remorse". It may be a week, or a month, or a year later but eventually that feeling creeps over me and makes me question if I made the right choice. Of course, hind sight being 20/20, I can look back and very clearly see how things could have gone differently, however, when you are in the midst of the forest, it is quite difficult to discern how many trees there are.

Last month, I quit what I referred to as my "dream job". Never in my forty years of working have I made that much money. At first the job was perfect. I always give 1000% to a job and by the end of 16 months, I was burned out, exhausted, and getting ill. I reached a breaking point and decided I needed to make a change. I dropped to part time and now I can devote myself to this new project.

I'm sitting here, rested and feeling wonderful and I'm thinking to myself, "Why on earth did I quit that wonderful job? I was making great money, I had a good deal of responsibilities, and accomplished a lot." I can easily forget the nights I cried on my way home. I forget the mornings with my stomach churned in anticipation of the stress my days brought me. I have a tendency to idealize situations. Part of my Pollyanna approach to life, I suppose. So, here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to give myself the benefit of the doubt and a pat on the back for knowing when to call it quits. I'm going to get up every morning and create beautiful things. I'm going to be the best person I can be. I'm going to trust that God will provide for me and my family as He always has. And this weekend, I am going to spend with my children and grandchildren and bask in their love.

1/2/2013: Progress!    Saturday, January 26, 2013

After spending eight hours yesterday in the "disaster room", I have things pared down to a few boxes. I read a meme on Facebook the other day that said "We'll be old friends until we're old and senile. then we'll be new friends!" that's how I felt yesterday when I was going through boxes. Much of these items were leftovers from when I had my little needlework shop. Seeing the carefully chosen items I elected to keep made me itch to get my hands busy and create wonderful things. and now, my creative space is opening up before me with great promise of what is to come!

This is my quite place. I've hung lots of family photos and cross stitch pieces all around. Things that make me smile and want to do good things. Outside the expansive window, I can see the deer tracks through the freshly fallen snow. I have some great tunes on the iPad. The house is warm and cozy. And I have my vanilla latte fresh from the espresso maker Mr. Virgo thoughtfully bought for me so I wouldn't miss my morning stop at Starbucks. Now, bring on the day!

1/1/2013: 2013!    Saturday, January 26, 2013

As I begin another new year, I am yet again in search of ways to improve and simplify my life. Every year I begin, with lofty ambitions, to set what usually turns out to be unattainable goals. This year I truly do want to make big changes and in order to do that, I have to hunker down and create a serious game plan. I recently left my dream job for a number of reasons. I dropped to part time, so I am still in the game and now I will have that little bit of extra time to do the things that truly give me joy. My beloved hubby, Mr. Virgo, and I are trying to find something we can do together, so I am paving the way. We are looking for a more joyful life.

We are in the Twilight Zone of those few years before we can actually retire. It's so close we can almost taste it. Yet, we still need those benefits and a steady paycheck. So, what's a girl to do? I have decided this year I will follow by bliss. I have tried several time in the past to make my living through my creativity and have backed down due to the fear that uncertainty brings. This time it's going to be different, because I am creating a game plan.

The first thing I need to do is get my environment in working order. We moved back into our home a year and a half ago and the garage is still half full of boxes. as is the craft room/office upstairs. I am going to get everything organized in those areas so that I actually have the room to create. As I clean and organize, things will go in four directions. 1) Things I must keep in order to have the supplies I need to create. 2) Things that can find a new home through the local thrift store. 3) Things that can be sold online either through eBay, Craig's List, or Etsy. and 4) Things that go in the trash/recycling bin. "Lighten the Load" is my new mantra, for without making this first critical step, none of the rest of the new plan will ever take place. Come alone with us as we embark on a year of change and growth!

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